Life has been so busy, working full-time, taking care of my husband. Let me just take a moment to say that I am utterly and completely mad about him. He is my favorite thing to see when open my eyes in the morning and the reason I am so excited to get home from work every night. He is patient and understanding, something I am not completely used to. Even though he hasn’t completely figured me out he’s slowly starting to understand that he never will. This infuriates him. He is absolutely the love of my life and I am so blessed to be a part of his story and am so glad that he is completing mine.
Life hasn’t necessarily been easy as well. Serious changes have been happening with my group of friends.
My Friend Shaylee is Marrying Ryan. Shannon, my sister and best friend is going away to college and I am utterly depressed.
Grant, Ryan’s brother is going into the Marines.
Shane, Sawyer and Shaylee’s Brother is working with Ryan at 4 Wheel Parts which is such a blessing.
Sawyer is going to be Daddy in September. I will wait to disclose the gender because no one knows yet… well except me.. That’s a whole different story.
Crazy things. I am slowly realizing that life is completely unpredictable, but it goes on. Maybe this time in my life is teaching me that I need to be more flexible. Not everything is bad, actually none of it is bad. My selfishness in missing my sister is the only thing that is going to be difficult, but for those of you wondering I will survive. ..I hope.. I started a business called Beauticontrol so that should keep me busy. I just pray that we all end up where we need to be and that these changes in our lives bring us closer together than apart. I truly believe that God has a sense of humor, He notices when you think you have everything figured out and he flips it upside down. Chang is good. That is what I keep telling myself. Change is good… right?
It is amazing how one decision can completely change a person’s life. Decisions are deceiving. I think the real dilemma is whether or not a person wants to stay in their complacent comfort zone, or if they are willing to take chances. Both options have pros and cons. They are beautiful and difficult at the same time. I guess that is with everything though. I pray that the right choice is made for me and my family. Even though I hate making choices, some of the best things have come out of taking a stand on what I feel is best. It is frightening though. Dennis Waitley wrote this: There are two primary choices in life: to accept conditions as they exist or accept responsibility for changing them. I have made a few choices that I cringe to think of, but then I remember why I did them and I have peace.
A new month. Today we are picking out invitations for the wedding. Of all of the details about the wedding, the invitations are on the bottom of my priority list. But they must be done! Weddings are stressful. No one told me this! In essence it is kind of silly. I have literally spent the last YEAR deciding my colors, hair, bridesmaids, decorations, and cake. I have agonized over so many details and really it is a 6-7 hour party. A little silly if you think about it. Not to mention the amount of money! I am so ridiculously excited though. What is the point of life and money if you don’t make wonderful memories? Isn’t that what life is about? I am so excited to marry Josh that I would elope tomorrow if we could. I just wanted everyone who wanted to be there, there. Many people are coming and I just need to constantly remind myself that whatever happens, happens and it will all be perfect because all that really matters is that I am marrying my best friend.